this morning

I was startled
not by how you
woke me up

but when you did

I wasn't upset or
even annoyed
just caught off guard

and I didn't want to 
tell you that

I wouldn't drive you home
that we were home

that you and I
were home

instead
I crawled out of bed
put on that shirt
that looks like an old
slave's garment

and told you
that I loved you